Wednesday, March 12, 2008

not about the weather

Lately I have written about nothing but the weather. That would be fine if I had nothing going on in my life besides acts of nature.

There are a few other things, though. My sister, who lives 800 miles away, has been diagnosed with cancer for which she is facing a 10-hour surgery next week. Being a single parent, travelling to Boston to help her is highly impractical, so I'm standing by, waiting.

I am still being sued by The Child's father for full custody and child support (even though he has never paid me a dime of child support!), and I am facing 2 dreaded court dates in May. This court case has been going on for a year, so I ought to be used to it by now. I'm not.

Then there's my job. The organization to which I have dedicated my life and labor since college is likely to shut down on April Fool's Day. I've always read that men derive their identity from their jobs, but I can state with absolute certainty that there are women thus afflicted. The field I'm in is notorious for job scarcity, and there are no more opportunities where I live. Because of my above-mentioned court case, I am obligated to remain in this city.

The above-pictured house is financed by a 15-year mortgage, which means the monthly payments are sky-high. Working at Wal-Mart will not cover my mortgage.

Then there's The Car. I am the proud owner of a 1991 Honda Civic. You know, they say that those little Civics are not good bets in crashes, but The Child and I have always been 100% safe in that car. The Car broke down once, only once, and that was last summer in the parking lot of the Rose Garden where I was dumping recycling. My house is situated on the same Rose Garden, so I had to walk but a few yards to get home, where I waited in air-conditioned comfort for the tow truck.

The Car is in the shop today. The Car always knows when it's convenient to show that it needs attention. I don't have to go to work today, and The Car's key began struggling to turn the ignition switch yesterday. Today was the best possible day for me to rise long before dawn to take The Car to the repair shop and then walk home 2 miles in time to walk The Child another 2 miles to his school bus stop. Had this occurred last week, I'd probably be institutionalized by now.

So although my original intent was to present The Car as yet another "issue" that I have to deal with, actually, The Car is on my side. It's cheap, reliable, considerate and cute.

And if I really stretch my perception, there's a positive side to all of this. The job loss will create an unprecedented opportunity for adventure. My sister's illness provides reminder of the fleeting nature of life and the wisdom of living each day to the fullest. The court case takes the problems between father and son out of my hands. So far, the father's unreasonable behavior has resulted in no visitation rights, not even supervised, which makes The Child happy. If I really wanted to, I could refinance that 15-year mortgage to a 30-year with lower payments, but I choose to hold onto my current loan with its 4.5% interest rate.

And besides, I've always wondered what it would be like to work at Wal-Mart.....

13 comments:

Priyamvada_K said...

Dear Betty,
Just dropping a note to say I'm here. Hoping along with you, that all will turn out well.

Take care,
Priya.

Betty said...

Dear Priya,

I love hearing from you. Thank you for your support!

Hugs,
Betty

Patti said...

You have a WONDERFUL outlook on things or at least you are presenting as such. I am in awe of you. I wish you the best and will send good vibes up your way!

Betty said...

Dear Patti,

Thanks for the encouragement! Everybody has problems, and all of mine are survivable, one way or another. I'll try to remain positive.

Hugs,
Betty

Daisy said...

I hope everything works out well for you. Sending you good and positive thoughts.

Betty said...

Dear Daisy,

Thank you! I am lucky to have people like you surrounding me with positivity.

Hugs,
Betty

My Kids Mom said...

Betty - I am sending lots of positive happy thoughts and prayers your way and for your sister also.

Heidi

Betty said...

Dear Heidi,

Thank you for stopping by and for your positive thoughts and prayers.

It's really helpful to have such strong cyber support!

Hugs,
Betty

Moanna said...

I was just checking out your profile to see where you live that you're getting so much snow and I notice that you mentioned "flexibility" there. Your posting demonstrates that you have lots of that quality. Would be nice if you didn't need quite so much of it, yes? :)

Betty said...

Dear Moanna,

Hah! My flexibility is being flexed, all right! Yes, fewer opportunities in that realm would be nice. That's an appropriate observation!

Hugs,
Betty

Dust-bunny said...

Betty,

Hope you are handling everything well. Your attitude seems very different than it did some months back, and you should be proud of that!

As I always tell you, please don't worry about the nut case. He won't win. Keep your faith...the longer it goes on, the older the child gets, which means he's closer to voicing his own opinion about where he wants to live. I just don't think they will force him to live with the monster.

Keep us posted!

Betty said...

Dear Dust-bunny,

Wow! It sure is good to see you again!

And you're definitely right about the case. I just received a letter from my lawyer stating that the Guardian ad Litem (who decides what is in the best interets of the child) has demanded that the father submit to psychological testing. I don't expect that to go well, for the father, that is.

My counselor agrees with you, that my "response" to things is a lot different now.

I hope you are well. You are missed by many!

Hugs,
Betty

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