Most likely, balance will always elude me. This month, I'm lucky if I focus on 2 things each day (jogging and work) instead of one (work). And that's seems to be as good as it gets. Somehow, when my sister died last month, my life derailed as far as organization and domestic responsibility. I suppose the unplanned trip to Boston to deliver her eulogy threw things off, and I never recovered.
Most of the time I keep busy, enough that I "forget" she's gone. But it hit last week. There was big news at work, and my reflex was to inform my sister, the only person in my family who had any interest whatsoever in my life. When it hit me that she was no longer there for me to send press releases, news articles and videos to, I broke down.
I have lost relevance.